Fetish Insecurity
I feel like everyone has certain kinks that will never sit quite right with them. I'm certainly never going to judge anyone with a different fetish as long as it's done safely and with proper consent. But I feel this strange insecurity around people about my own interests.
I'm more into bondage and some light masochism. I'm certainly not as extreme as some, but I know it's not everyone's thing. It sounds weird, but a part of me just kind of knew it was something I was into since I started puberty. I just didn't know what it was called but I never shied away from it.
I thought I was comfortable with it, but I feel like potential partners are scared of the idea. It's frustrating that what I like is looked at as wrong or disturbing. I have some pretty well set limits and I'm nowhere near as extreme as others with such interests, but I feel like just saying it stops some people in their tracks.
It's frustrating because I never felt this need to change or suppress my views until I saw the reactions of potential partners. Some people I know struggle with their sexual interests all the time, and I feel like I'm starting to as well. I haven't been able to express myself in that way and it's making me feel embarrassed and angry. I don't know how to get people over this stigma of my personal interests. I'm not trying to convert people, just make those involved more comfortable consenting to it.
This is one of the times I'd recommend a online dating services. Having a sexual interest outside of the mainstream, means you'd have to do alot of dating to stumble across someone with similar interests. With a dating service, you can far more easily find Like minded potential partners