I set my older sister as an example of what not to do as a parent

So I have an older half sister who is 20 years older than me. I admire her as an independent, hard working woman in the big city, but what I don't like is the stubborn, perfectionist and controlling attitude she has towards me, the youngest. If I try to express my complaints towards her, she wouldn't back down because things should always go her way. If I did something bad, I would hesitate to tell her because I know for sure she's gonna blow up in my face, which is usually what happens. I remember when I told her I was feeling depressed and how I was suicidal once, she told me that it's stupid and that I should've been stronger mentally. When I tell her I my boyfriend of 2 years had proposed to me, she told me about guys who she thinks are a better fit for me. She would often wonder why I never talk to her openly about things... THAT'S why 🤷‍♀️

Honestly, I think there's a reason why at her age she is still single and childless. Yes, I say it as an insult because she actually wants to be married and have kids, but unable to due to her personality. But I'd pity whoever becomes her child since I can't even deal with her as a younger sister. She's very religious too so I'd say it's a divine intervention :p

But with that experience, I get the picture of what having a strict parent who set high expectations on you looks like. Even as an adult, I too would rebel against those kinda parents until I remember that I'm not a teenager nor her child 😂 When I have kids one day, I will make sure I don't become someone like her.