Help.... My trauma causing me to be distant with my partner
TW/CW sexual assault and trauma
I've been sexually assaulted in college on top of shallow relationships that have led me to be distant with my current partner. We've been together a year and have had a great relationship in all, we've had a few fights/arguments about stuff but have been able to resolve them. It's now to a point where we are very close and unconsciously I have been pushing them away. I think this is from being scared that they will eventually be like all other relationships I've been in where they were shallow and just wanted sex with me. My last ex expected me to sleep with him when ever I came over and if I didn't he would get mad at me. My current partner doesn't do that so I don't understand why I'm so scared. I need help figuring out why my trauma is controlling me and how to manage this...
@Avocadodaddy420
I think you should tell your partner. Don't run from them. I know it is hard to tell others what you went through but your partner should know. I believe in a relationship you need to be transparent. Put yourself out there. Your partner would not know what is on your mind if you don't tell them. That way they know how to support/help you and why you act a certain way.
@bubbleCurrent6525 they know about most of it. And they want to help me through this but i dont know how or where to start...
@Avocadodaddy420
I would say to take things on your own time. Don't force yourself to do things you don't like. It only make it worse. I believe your partner wouldn't want that either. Healing take time. The amount of time it take differ from person to person. The only person who knows when is the right time is you alone. So trust yourself. Continue to be open with your partner. Communication is extremely important in a relationship.
I wish you the best.
