just need someone to talk to

my girl and i who’d we been on and off with for almost 2 years decided we break up and for good reason. im not mad at her, she was tired of my bs and she’s in school im i know she didn’t want the stress that i was putting on her. the reason we broke up was because i pushed her to lose feeling by breaking up over and over again because of her having a male friend and because i kept getting upset and it was out of fear. see, i was never really comfortable with the concept of my partner having male friends due to insecurity and trust issues with myself, but i had nothing to fear the whole time and she reassured me of it and the guy had a gf he was devoted to, so what happened? well i think its because of how possessive i am and because he had more life experience and good advice to give and ik i couldnt do that but i also did learn a thing or two from him (lol), and i know thats not good (being possessive), and im sure most would understand that you’d only want your partner to talk to you and give you all your attention but considering we were in a long distance relationship, us both having opposite sex friends and just friends in general wasnt such a bad idea, it was just taking me a little to adjust to but it was already too late and point is i want to stop feeling like this, i dont want to repeat continuous cycles of heartbreak and toxic behaviors because it feels as horrible for me as it does for my partner.