i miss love
sometimes i miss the feeling of warmth telling someone i love them at night,
sometimes i miss the sex,
sometimes i miss holding someones hand and walking around the park,
sometimes i miss the romance,
sometimes i miss the late night talks and laughs
but missing is no more than reminiscing over what could have been and that will get you no where. yet, i find myself not necessarily missing the person, but rather the love they gave.
i miss love, but i dont feel ready to love again. i been working on myself a lot lately. maybe a bit too much to a point where i dont even know if its helpful lol. but i keep striving to do better and build myself up. i try so hard to be better even though it seems futile at times.
im not a very social person, but i wish i was so often. i see so many of my friends around me in happy relationships…and then there is me. now ik its not healthy to compare yourself to others, but sometimes i cant help it. and that comparing myself to others has turned into almost a jealousy, where i want what they have so bad. this jealousy turns into loneliness and sadness most of the time, leaving a nasty taste of despair in my mouth.
i know love cannot be forced and it does have to stumble in your life with a little bit of luck; however, i just always find myself wanting love again. i miss love, a lot more than i care to admit at times…causing me to feel a bit lost/hopeless about love as a whole as of recent.
-slixy
@slixy
I understand and there are many more who feel like this to ........
the problem in comparing yourself is behind closed doors some even in couples feel like they are missing the items you wrote of .also ...... i am finding in my "research" lol
in asking deeper questions about how people really feel .... i hear things like yeah all relationships reach that point .... no real connection but posing as a happy couple in their eyes they feel is better then being alone...i do not see it.
Love comes in many ways and often when we are still sort of "Looking" ...... we think we know we want XYZ ................but sometimes love has different plans..... and then we do not see why love has not stumbled into our world....
@slixy
wow- so relatable and eerily similar to many of my journal entries- sending shimmery vibes your way
@slixy Your words are so touching. I want love, too. I want to love someone, and be loved by someone. Hope someday we will get our luck. Big hug for you💗