Should i message her

So i got dumped by this girl once in october and then on new years eve. now and the first time really depressed me and im kinda afraid of it happening again. This time She said some things that really made me feel bad but the way she worded it made it seem like it was all my fault. So i was wondering if i should send her a long message telling her how i felt about her treatment of me through the relationship. I don’t think shes good for me and im not trying to get her back, i just feel like i deserve to have her know how she affected me.

pls let me know if I should send this message and block her after.

I feel like you were almost always some kind of mean. Maybe it was all jokingly, but I feel like some of it wasn’t. You would always call me fat or a *** or just something, always, and even though they didn’t make me feel like you meant them usually, it was just tiring to deal with it constantly. I couldn’t even talk about food to you.

I almost never got compliments, even though I gave them all the time. You didn’t remember my birthday in May, even though I had talked about it previously that week. A lot of people forgot, but it didn’t matter to me because I just wanted you to remember, and you didn’t.

Every time I would somehow bother you, even though I always tried to do what I thought you would want, you’d become distant and stop replying for hours. You would only tell me that I bothered you when I had to literally ask you what was wrong, and even then, sometimes you would just brush it off.

Then you told me that I didn’t talk about my feelings enough and didn’t communicate, even though I felt like I was literally the only one trying. Somehow, I *** you off? I always tried to make you happy and be nice to you.

I guess I was in the wrong for worrying about you when you literally wouldn’t eat for a day. I guess I was a little cringe with it, but you really lost feelings because I care? I honestly tried to help and be there for you, and it felt like you spit in my face by telling me that I got on your nerves. What did I do to deserve that?

Also, with my mom—I understand what she said about you was wrong, and so does she, but being too involved? I literally snuck out of my house, turned off my location, and lied about it. How is she the weird one for wanting to meet your parents? She felt like I disrespected them and wanted to have a conversation with them.

Saying my mom was too involved when you literally had your 20-year-old brother telling you that we wouldn’t work out seemed crazy to me. The last time you stopped talking to me hurt, but I was finally moving on. I had actually stopped thinking about you every single hour.

Then you texted me again, and there I went, falling right back into it. You learned what you wanted and that you weren’t ready for a relationship at my expense, and that really sucks.