NOISE WHEN STUDYING AND A DIRTY HOUSE TRIGGERS ME
I used to have a really bad relationship with my mom, but when I've gone to college and we were km apart, we've become closer.
facts about me:
- i'm easily *** and sensitive
- i hate my brother for being messy and lazy. he's disgusting
- i'm the one who cleans the house
- i'm not OCD. i just hate a dirty/messy place
- i tried telling them how i hated it, they don't really care about how i feel
when i say "careful with the floor, i just mopped it"
my mom would reply "it's fine, we can clean it up again" aaand I hate it!! I HATE ALWAYS CLEANING, I JUST WAN'T A CLEAN PLACE AND MAINTAIN THE CLEANLINESS UNTIL MY NEXT CLEANING SCHEDULE
- because of that I'M NOT EATING WELL BECAUSE I HATED OUR PLACE, no matter how dizzy and hungry i get
- i only eat when i'm at peace, alone and relaxed
- I ALSO HATE IT WHEN IT GETS NOISY WHEN I TRY TO STUDY
I HATE THIS, I HATE WHAT I'M FEELING. PLEASE HELP ME
I THINK I'LL GET SICK BECAUSE OF MY FAMILY. I'D SOMETIMES THINK THAT I HAVE ANGER ISSUES OR ATTITUDE PROBLEMS WHEN I THINK THAT IT'S NORMAL AND IT'S JUST MY FAMILY THAT IS ANNOYING