@GenerousEyes22
Hii there. I feel for you with how heavy you must be feeling after ending that 8-year relationship. Making that decision is a brave and difficult decision, especially I see that you both care about each other.
It's understandable that despite the unhealthy behaviors, it's going to be hard to accept the bond and love you shared is over.
And your feelings of fear and hesitancy are completely valid. It's natural to be cautious when you're deciding if you want to try the relationship with him again.
It's clear to me you've put a lot of thought into your decision to end it, recognizing the unhealthy patterns and acknowledging the pain it caused.
As difficult as it is, taking this step shows your strength and self-awareness. It's okay to grive the loss of relationship, even if it was the right decision. Give yourself the time and space you need to heal.
Breakups are never easy, but please know you don't have to face it alone. You got a whole community here who got your back.
Feel free to share more of your feelings and thoughts, we got ya.
And remember, it's okay to prioritize your own happiness and piece of mind.
Best wishes to you 💜