I am not good enough for a Girlfriend.

I am a guy.  I am a Christian.  I have a learning disability called ADHD/ADD.  I wrote a post about Church hurt where I go into details on why I am not in Church anymore. 

I once prayed that if I could be around Women then I might learn how to get along with them.  Did that prayer get answered?  I honestly don't know... 

My learning disability and  other mental health problems cost me two jobs before landing the job I am currently in.  22 years ago, I had no idea I would get stuck where I am at.

I am currently working for a School.  I clean 2:00pm - 10:30pm.  The school has around 50 Women employed, from Office Workers, Cafeteria workers, Teacher Aids, and the Teachers.  Over the course of 22 years I have had lots of little interactions/talks with some of the Women there.  97% of them are already married.  What I think I have learned from my experiences is that I'm not "boyfriend" material.  It constantly feels like I got to walk on eggshells around them.

Since my real life is like this, I decided to try online.  In the early days, it was easier for me to find a woman to talk too.  But the women I would meet was always long distance away, and they were not right for me.  As time went on, I found that it became harder and harder to even meet them.  Since I have found myself thinking about this again for the 1 Billionth time.  I decided I would write about it.  See I just wrote something about it.

What is wrong with me?  I think the main thing that is wrong with me is my learning disability.  Somehow it effects everything about me, including my body language.  The lack of connection causes depression, and everyone around me can tell that is happening too.  It is like a circle that I can't get out of it.  But one thing I can do is write about it.