I Don’t Know

my ex and I broke up around 7 months ago, and he would always tell me I’m horrible for criticizing him and asking him for things like flowers, or just to talk to me. For context My friend was in the ICU and I asked him for more support because I felt like he wasn’t there for me. He would bring up things I did in the past, some I couldn’t remember. Some I didn’t think were wrong one being I didn’t answer his text because I was babysitting my nephew. Ever since then I don’t feel like I can open up about what I feel because I’m scared people will think I’m criticizing them, and even though I know I wasn’t in the wrong at the time for asking for support, but I can’t help but think I need to fix something about myself. My therapist says that he emotionally abused me and I’m having a hard time wrapping my head around it. I feel lost but can’t talk to anyone about it.