Confused and stuck
Trigger warning: adult content
Been married for a long time. We used to be the golden couple, but that was when he worked, went hunting and fishing and whatever with his brothers and I stayed home and took care of the kids and house. I didn’t have a separate identity. We had a run away child for about 10 months. Never saw it coming, we did everything together.there’s was a lot of things that happened during that time trying to reunite with said child. I struggled with depression and our other kids became closer and really showed up for me. We’d go for drives or drinks or even smash pumpkins. My husband wasn’t interested in being a part of any of this. He would yell at me to stop being stupid and wasting my energy on said child and that I’m not being fair to him by putting my energy Into her. I wasn’t in a romantic mood and he expected me to be and that led to fights almost nightly, each time he got
more volatile. The more he pushed the more I resented him. It went on for over a year. Some fights were explosive because I wasn’t full filling my obligations. There were times I was coerced into so that I could stop the harassment and go to sleep and other times I woke up to it starting to happen. Most recently after threatening g to leave me several times he did leave. After me being away with a friend for a mental break he wants me back and wants me to forget the past and start over. I can’t do that. He wants me to decide right now, it’s only been 2 weeks of separation and the child is acting out annd partially left again too. I’m not in the position to make that decision right now. He asked to stay last night since I just got back from my get away and the roads were bad. He made it 2 minutes before he initiated and pushed for it again. I guess what I’m asking is am I being unreasonable for being hurt and wanting more time apart and for him to understand why it hurt me and why I feel the way I feel? There are more issues at hand, like his anger and moods, but this is the most pressing that got us here.
