Aversion to noise
Does anyone else deal with this? I live in a house with thin walls and whenever anyone talks on the phone or turns on the TV, I lose my mind a little bit. I feel like the sounds trespass into my space and I feel violated- I either start having a mild anxiety attack or I get depressed and paralyzed. Like the sounds are an attack, like they are pushing me out of the house and taking up all the air until there is no room left for me. This happens to me in my house and sometimes I just fall into a depressive slump because of it and other times I can shut myself into the closet in the far side of the house to escape any chance of a noise attack. This whole noise aversion thing was one of the main reasons I couldn't live in a dorm or apartment- I would get anxiety attacks all the time and I would spoil any chance of socializing because I would make sure I was only there to sleep. If I had to be in the apartment or dorm, I would usually end up drinking myself silly or self-harming and blasting music in my ears until my head hurt. I feel insane because when I tried to explain this to my parents they just accused me of being overly sensitive and my friend told me I was just spoiled. I need to socialize and get out there in the world, but sounds absolutely kill me.