Again.

I let my ex back into my life he said him losing me was life changing and I told him I had to heal and he should too because we both have our own issues. He said he’s a different person and would never hurt me again. Talked about about our future and what not and we could work out while we’re apart. Last night he was sending short texts and was like ok whatever he’s going thru something and I went to bed. Woke up was like just give me a heads up if you don’t wanna talk like o understand then throws “if we get back together it’s gonna be similar to how it was before and it’s not my fault” after he begged me to let him back into my life and to trust his word so he should be trusting in me and take my word too. I have not responded because he promised he wouldn’t hurt me again and here we are. I know deep down I had doubts and we’d be at square one again. It’s hard especially having borderline personality disorder and I’ve been putting off calling my insurance to transfer it to the new place I’m at but I know I need to talk to someone a therapist. I feel so drained and so depressed. It’s hard.