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BPD Breakup

Personality Disorders Support / by Priscella

Tuesday

...See more ex And I broke up after 4 years. We met cuz I cheated on my ex with him and that was the start of everything going bad. Because of that initial cheating caused this car crash that just kept going. We were on and off and and I loved this man and I still do but I did also at times stare at other people idk if I did or not I am not aware but my ex would say that and it turned to dv. My ex tried to commit and we broke up for a while but after that I spoke to someone for like 2 days cuz I was hurting and during that time my ex wanted to “get revenge” so he took me to the worst street with street workers and was messing with me it was like 2 am and I was in pjs then took us to a s** club and tried getting us a threesome for revenge. I also later found out he went to Mexico and went to a strip club etc. two weeks ago I was honest and told him I spoke to someone for a few days when we weren’t together but we still loved each other and I knew I still loved my ex so that’s why me talking to that person only lasted 2 days. He broke up with me and went crazy and wouldn’t give me my items he physically harmed me and I had to call a cop to retrieve my items. I feel like it’s unfair because during the entire relationship he thought I was doing stuff so he would watch p*** and date people behind my back. I know we loved each other. I feel like I’m mad because I was being honest and it was a casual convo with the person I was talking too but he also has cheated and he got so mad and doesn’t wanna try again or wait and see if we can work out. I feel like no matter what he did I always stayed and loved him. I never cheated on him besides how we met. We’re texting here and there and he says he’ won’t ever love anyone or trust anyone and he hasn’t deleted our pictures or anything. I don’t wanna let go but I know it’s hurting me because I just want him to say he will wait for me to get better mentally because I also was at a low state even now. Idk I see a therapist tomorrow and have an appointment for meds. I don’t wanna stop talking to my ex because I’m scared ima miss an opportunity for us to work again. He wants to stay in my life he said but idk if I can just be friends. He’s also struggling with this and I also want to be there for him. Idk what to do.

On and off officially over