A In Love Aromantic

I was broken up with by the person I have been in love with for a near four years, a homoerotic friendship. We got together and our relationship lasted five months, we got back together nearly a month after, then another month passes and they break up with me once again, a month later they got into another relationship.

Breakups are hard already but when it's your best friend AND you are aromantic, specifically cupioromantic, only had attraction to your best friend, meaning it is unlikely you'll have intimancy, romance, a family in your now future; it makes this brekaup so much the more harder...Because they are likley the only person who could of given that to me AND that I want that from.