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1 year since we met. my heart is still breaking for him.

peaceandblessings October 30th

i don’t know what to do anymore.


i can barely even write because of how sad this situation makes me. i’d like to write about a story that took place seven months ago, when i last wrote here on 7 cups.


i’ve done so much since then to change my life, i’ve changed just about everything i possibly could. but he is still on my mind. i had a dream about him recently. i hadn’t seen him in any of my dreams in a long time.


i love the person i was around him. i love how i felt when i was with him. how is he just gone and how am i supposed to accept that?


he told me he loved me seven months ago and then instantly abandoned me. i feel like a baby that can’t stop crying when i remember this. i want to forget it but i don’t. our friendship and connection was so beautiful and unique. i had never had a connection like that before. it feels like i’m in mourning.


it’s been almost a year since i first met him. and i still love him as much as i did then. he was one of my most best friends. we bonded instantly and i still can’t imagine the rest of my life without him. we made each other so happy and i still can’t believe he could let go of that. i find myself at unexpected moments checking to see if he has called or texted me. nobody has made me as happy as he did. i miss him and i love him so much, ill miss him for the rest of my life. i mean we LITERALLY had so much chemistry and such a beautiful bond. i never thought i would meet someone who would connect with me the way he did. no one has connected with me like that ever since.


i feel like im grieving one of the most important people to ever come into my life. i don’t know how i’ll ever be okay again.



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toughTiger6481 October 30th

@peaceandblessings

I think you said it yourself .... you loved who you were with him. Can you tap into that and be who you were optimistic and happy?

      I know it does not seem like it...... but you will have a tough time moving on when you hold everything up to that experience... He left and moved on .......he may not even know you are still holding on.    There will be someone else and perhaps you will not recognize it when it shows up.  

I think people come into our lives and help us grow ... I have fond memories and love for various people who showed me different parts of myself... and made me feel so much... many of these people do not stay in our lives forever and that is OK.   When we remember the blessing it was to see ourselves through their eyes. 

sociableShip748 October 30th

@peaceandblessings

hi how are you doing? I would like to talk to you.