Mareo and Lumie the Legends part 2

*pokes* hello hello! hope you are doing well, just saw that you writing about the same thing I am posting lol. I was a little excited so this is kinda long, hope you don't mind (I know you won't).

Mareomallow, an ESFP: an essay
the first thing it says about you is there is no other type as generous with their time and energy as you, and it's true. you just shared that you enjoy talking to people a lot and often, would rather talk to people than do boring homework. I truly believe that you go above and beyond to be there for people you love and just value connections a whole lot, which is really admiring. it says you enjoy the simplest things, and there's a no greater joy for you other than spending time with your friends - very true again. you are always the first person to help someone out, are there for them emotionally and can offer practical advice, are observant and sensitive to other's emotions.

"The biggest challenge Entertainers face is that they are often so focused on immediate pleasures that they neglect the duties and responsibilities that make those luxuries possible. Complex analysis, repetitive tasks, and matching statistics to real consequences are not easy activities for Entertainers." - I think you agree to this stuff. tbh, those are very boring things and I get why someone would not really want to do them. they're not fun activities. it says that you could chat for hours about literally anything with your friends and that's true, I agree. *nods*

your strengths:
1. bold - you don't usually back down from anything and are always willing to do the needful even if nobody else is.
2. original - I would say you are VERY original. you are always coming up with such dope names, questions, ways to spend time together, etc. you're always just so original and I love all of your ideas, theories, perspectives simply because you make them hard to not like. you are very intelligent and creative in the way you think.
3. aesthetics and showmanship - it is basically talking about you wanting to be stylish. it makes me think about how much you love shoes.
4. practical - you believe you have to see and feel things for yourself and don't often daydream about the 'what ifs' instead you do what you feel like doing. very true for you.
5. observant - as I already mentioned before you are very observant, a point to support this is you always welcome everyone in the group chat and are just keeping track of what we talk about too, a lot of times you remembered about me going out, or on a birthday party so it makes me think you really pay attention to these sort of things and it makes me happy.
6. excellent people skills - you do love to pay attention to others and love talking. almost never run out of things to talk about, are witty (with all those topics and questions you talk to me about, I actually would say you do think a lot when it matters, I love everything that you bring up in a conversation) and your happiness/satisfaction comes from spending time with people you care about, which I am sure you agree to 101%.

your weaknesses:
1. sensitive - have a strong response to criticisms. it says you may feel like you are pushed into a corner and it is likely one of your biggest weaknesses. I would say it is true to some extent, like when people are being racists it puts you off, rightfully so. and well, criticism is hard to digest, especially if the person delivering it is a forking fool, or is just doing so to be mean. so I totally get you on this one. do you personally have anything to mention on this?
2. conflict-averse - it says you don't like conflicts and try to move on to something fun. I don't think it's true for you. you may not like conflicts but you always seem to face them head-on, just wanting the best for everyone. I don't think you would ignore or avoid a conflict especially if it's needed that you deal with it asap. and I really admire that about you. you don't back down from making things right with everyone, you're very nice.
3. easily bored - you can create your own excitement, and I guess it's true. choosing the pleasure over long-term plans is likely you. I am more or less the same, I guess. I do tend to get boring and sometimes we all need instant gratification.
4. poor long-term planners - you did say you don't like planning stuff out. you just take life as it comes and doesn't want to plan out all the steps in the way. we talked about this while doing the test and yes, we both agreed that you tend to do this.
5. unfocused - "In academics, dense, unchanging subjects like Classic Literature are much more difficult than more dynamic, relatable subjects like psychology. In academics, dense, unchanging subjects like Classic Literature are much more difficult than more dynamic, relatable subjects like psychology." I sent you this yesterday haha, and you agreed to you liking psychology cause it's relatable.

romantic relationships:
I would like to know what you think about this line, "For people with the Entertainer personality type, relationships aren’t about slowly building foundations for the future, or planning out a life – they are bubbling, unpredictable things to be enjoyed for as long as there’s enjoyment to be had." I think the way you mention Livi and yourself, it sort of aligns with this but I want to know if you sort of/completely disagree with this.
you always have something exciting to do in a relationship and I would agree, as I already said you always come up with great ideas to spend time. conversations with you are mostly fun and quirky instead of deep soul-searching, I would say I agree to it slightly. sometimes you do bring up deep conversation topics and fairly speak on it. so I would say you have a good balance instead of doing just either of the two. past, future, science, politics, long-term plans and commitments are mostly ignored by you and well, I agree. you did say you don't plan or think about the future. you're grounded in the present.
you don't always respond well to outside suggestions or comments on your love life, and I guess it can be true. I wouldn't want a random person to comment on what it is like for me. I don't need to hear things about my life from someone who doesn't even know me.
it says you date people who are kinda like you, I don't know if it's true. you said livi and you are quite different. you do value social input a lot, because I've seen you openly talk about things that matter to you and respectfully accept or acknowledge what the other person has to say for that.
"Entertainers are fortunate that they take the time to find someone they truly enjoy being with every day, rather than settling too soon for stability over happiness, only to lose both." :) livi and you!

friendships:
making friends is not hard for you, agreed. blunt truths, disarming openness and charm to get things started. the first time we chatted regarding the forum thing, I noticed all three of these in you. you were very honest and open about how you didn't know anything about the forums and smh, remember when you couldn't see the post to thread thingy? you were honest and chill about that too. and it was your charm that made me want to talk to you again, it was very sweet of you to mention me in your healthy habits post.
I don't agree to this thing that it says about you, that you move on from friendships once the adventure or fun part is over. you always find reasons to stay and don't let go of people easily. you are anything but shallow, you're actually very caring and value your relationships with people.

parenthood:
most relaxed, fun-loving parents - the best way to describe you. I know that you don't really love kids as in love to play with them or whatever so I will keep this one short. when kids ask you questions, you're like "let's find out" I guess if anyone ever asks you about something you're response could be that because you'd be curious. it says nice things about you, you'd be very supportive and kind, you are like that to everyone.

career paths:
it says you mirror the mood around you, I think it might be true. natural event planners, sales representatives, trip planners, and tour guides - mhm, interesting. they should include firefighters. they make wonderful and inspiring counsellors, social workers, personal coaches, and consultants who improve employee or customer satisfaction - I do believe you'll do good with these careers too.
"People with the Entertainer personality type need to know that they aren’t just appreciated, though that is very important, but liked. When Entertainers come in to work, they want to see a touch of chaos, and to navigate it with a crack team of capable friends who are all too happy to take action by their sides." - you are appreciated as well as liked, mareo <3
I sorta skipped the workplace habit lol. I don't know if it would say anything different to the career path one.

I said what I could about how much this personality describes you. you are not just an ESFP though, your awesomeness and wholesomeness can't be pushed into a four-letter type personality. I would love to know what you personally think of this. you are amazing mareo, and I'm glad I get to know much more about you every day.

damn lol mine is unorganized af compared to urs

Lumie- ISFJ

"Love only grows by sharing. You can only have more for yourself by giving it away to others"

That quote already matches u bc you are a loving person who does share love a lot. It says you're receptive to change to new ideas and i think you change for others but a few aspects you do like to keep the same, especially when it comes to rules u have for urself. You are kind and an altruist. You tend to try to be a perfectionist at times, and have high expectations on yourself. You can underplay your accomplishments a lot of the time because you are humble. People could take advantage and claim your work is theirs. You are naturally social and observant of people and remember things about people very well. You are very good at socialization, and keeping the peace and making people happy. You do use your sensitivity to make others happy, like you make those nice and thoughtful gifts for people and work so hard on it to let them know you appreciate them. You do show affection very well.It says that even thought you have introverted tendencies, you’re still amazing at connecting with people. You’re not that comfortable in all the spotlight, and don’t like to take all the credit for things, but you feel great satisfaction in things you work hard for. You are humble and a hard-worker, but you don’t boast about it. You are a helper to anyone who needs it and supportive, always always choose to be empathetic than to judge. You are careful and don't rush into decisions, you use your brain and think about things. You are also careful with your goals and work to make sure things get well accomplished by you. You are imaginative and this helps you out in the field of empathy, as you are able to use your active imagination to imagine how people must be feeling, and I see this being a very good skill for you as a psychologist too. Your empathy goes just beyond understanding words, it goes onto imagining the feeling of the person. You strive to make a difference in the life of people, whether it’s a small nice action or a very big one. You have enthusiasm for the creative ideas your brain creates and you get loyal to not only your goals, but the people in your life, and you don’t lose sight of your goals and where you are headed in life. You are able to do mundane tasks because you see peace in them, especially if they help people, like how you like to clean. A lot of people can consider things like cleaning or reading as “boring” but you see good in the little things too, and the calmness and how they can benefit you and people. You can be at risk of downplaying your success. You can be shy towards certain situations, and you’re concerned about others thoughts and feelings. You can take negativity directed at you very personally and it can cause you to withdraw or feel discouraged. Occasionally, you can repress your feelings, but I think you are pretty open and honest with people who you think are worthy of hearing your troubles. You can be a little of a perfectionist because you try to maintain not only your own expectations on yourself, but the expectations of others too. You’re not always willing to change certain things you do it says, but I think you’re pretty receptive to hearing the ideas and opinions of others, and you’re good at stepping back, analyzing your behavior and adjusting accordingly if need be. You’re not always willing to accept people’s offers of help because you believe you can and should do it on your own, and you’re very selfless and don’t want to burden others with your troubles. You try to create harmony in households and you would be an amazing caretaker for your kids. You take dating seriously, you don’t just do it for the eff of it, you do it if you really see a lasting, committed future with that person. Even though at times you can appear shy, underneath that is a very huge and deep, loving personality. You try to create bonds with good people to not take your dedication and love for granted. You are also physically affectionate, such as through hugs, because you believe that comforts people and people deserve to be comforted in all different ways. You would try your best to satisfy a partner in a relationship and ensure that they are okay and happy. Some people out there could take advantage of your kindness and selflessness. You would contribute happily to a family household, and help others in the household with things they need done. Other people enjoy your company because you make people feel good, safe and supported. Friends of yours are not usually made from random talks, but when two people make consistent efforts to be kind to eachother is your favorite type of friendship. You like to get to know people little-by-little and take it kind of slow at first, until you make a very deep bond. You enjoy positive feedback, and when it’s given by a friend, it can create a very amazing, healthy two-sided bond. You have strong loyalty to friends and try to make them happy, even if it affected your own life, you are willing to help others and you try to please people even if it lowkey negatively affected you in the process. You are friendly with everyone but you normally commit to people who match your morals and try to engage with you and put effort into the friendship, and those are usually the people you end up having the deeper bonds with. As a parent, you’d be a very welcoming, approachable and non-judgemental parent who is there to help your kids. “From the start, Defenders’ altruism is apparent in their approach towards their children, ensuring that they have a safe, stable environment filled with love, care and support.” I agree with that because I think you would be a very nice parent who wants safety and happiness for your kid and you’d work hard to make sure they are taken care of physically and mentally. “Defender parents must ensure that more dependent children, who are willing to lean on all of this care and support rather than rebel against it, do not take these admirable qualities for granted, neglecting their own independence entirely.” lol tbh i dont even know what that means and uh.. I think u would be an equally good parent whether your child is more independent or not. It says you wouldn’t always be super comfortable putting your foot down as a parent. I agree that since it’s hard for you to say no, telling your kid no wouldn’t be your favorite thing to do, but I think you could still do it for sure. But I think you’d be more of a compromising parent than a parent who just says no, no no no no all the time to your kid. I feel like if your kid wanted something you would listen to them and evaluate the situation and compromise, and tell them what you think about it, versus just telling them no on every single thing. It says you’re like the backbone of jobs because your personality type is very good for dedicated and helpful jobs. In a job you would genuinely get satisfaction out of helping others. You pay attention to people and you would be the type to notice a coworker mention an upcoming birthday and do something for them, I could see you doing that with those little cool gift boxes you make for people lol. You’d want to see first hand that your occupation is making a positive difference in someone’s life and I think as a psychologist, it would give you great joy to see your clients improving little by little and that you’d be very patient with them, no matter what emotion they come into the office feeling that day. Even though you wouldn’t seek out being a manager, you would still be a good one anyways because you wouldn’t be bossy or judgey, you’d be approachable and patient. “Where Defenders struggle is in generating new ideas and in grasping abstract concepts – fields like academic research and corporate strategy are too intangible and too impersonal to utilize Defenders’ strengths.” I don’t rlly know what thats saying and I dont agree with it because you grasp concepts amazingly and you come up with incredible ideas. You are very smart and your smart brain has no limits. I could see you doing volunteer work. You always help your mom out with chores and that’s not something a lot of kids do, but you are just helpful and like to make the lives of others easier. You value heart-felt thanks and appreciation over money in your job. “Throughout your whole life, Defender, you’ve always sought answers and solutions. From global issues to your friend’s daily struggles, your kind and diligent mind has worried, questioned, and wondered. And you can’t really stop it. Because you care” You do care and worry about people, I agree, and you take on other people’s problems like they are your own a lot of the time.

i feel like most of the personality anylisis was just talking about how u are compared to people and how nice u are, which is true but i lowkey wish they talked more about the personality type as an individual and not just what they can do for people. i think ur a mix of more than one personality and this is likely one of them, it matched u for the most partbc u are super kind, helpful and sweet. if u have sum comments about it id luv to hear

haha yeah urs is long wow thnx for taking the time to write all this i appreicta it a lot

i agree that im pretty generous with my time and i give time to people. i go above and beyond? lol thnx Lumie. and yes i do value connections a lot. i agree that i help ppl out and enjoy spending time with people

i do think im focused on immediate pleasure like talking to ppl is immediate pleasure so is food an music and weed and if rather do those things than work or school.lmao yeah they are boring things blegh boring things suck

lol thnx lumie. i agree to the bold thing like how id stand up for ppl if i saw injustice going on. thanks for saying im creative and intelligent that's rlly nice. oo yea i do rly like shoes. flashy good looking shoes. shoes r my favorite part of a fit. yeah i dont daydream about anything agreed. ahah thanks yeah i do pay attention to ppl and try my best to be attentive and remember the little things. thanks ig i have okay conversation skills

i think i can b sensitive occasionally i dont think im overly sensitive to the point where its weird. just moderately. and yea racists and crap rlly offend me

i agree with u. i dont run away from conflict or pretend its not there. is actually like to address conflicts, work it out, and reach a solution, not just ignore it. so i agree with u. im not scared to confront conflict going on. i like to discuss about it and reach a consensus

yeh i am easily bored. school is extremely damn boring to me. so boring that i just cant pay attention its so boring. yeah i dont plan lol. /

yeah i kinda agree in a relationship i dont rly think about long term stuff or big future stuff i just focus on the future and having fun with livi. im in the present not the future or pas.t. yeah i like doing exciting things but a lot of the time im too lazy to do them so it contradicts. livi gets onto me for being lazy and staying in bed all day. i like excitement but my laziness makes me just lay down all day. so i dont do as many fun things w livi as i would like bc i ust get tired easily and yeh. but livi and i do play video games and watch youtube together the most. and i phone games

yeah i think most my conversations arent super deep but then again.. who just talks about deep stuff all the time. i talk about deep stuff maybe 30% of the time idk. i dont avoid talking about deep stuff. i enjoy both small talk and very deep convos. i will do whatever type of convo the other person wants to have, idc

mm yea idk about that "u date ppl who are like u" i dont agree. i think i told u before that i wouldn't wanna date a female nick. that would be boring and stupid af and i would break up with her. i dont wanna date someone too similar to me ew wtf. i actually like to date ppl that are lowkey opposite of me. i like diversity. i like learning about ppls differences. so no i dont wanna date someone exactly like me lmfao. i want them to have similar morals and kinesness but that's it. and i dont think livis like me. shes more dominant confident and a crap ton more sassy than i am. livi is very sassy ahah. and she is more bossy than i am. shes also more helpful than i am. livi is very selfless and does a lot for ppl. shes very caring and will do crazy things to prove she loves me. like the time when she came into my work yelling at my coworkers when they used 2 bully me. shes not aafriad to stand up for ppl and shes bold. livi and i are different cuz i would describe myself as more chill. and livi is wat ppl call around here "extra" she always be dressing super extra, talking ppl extra. shes more extraverted than i am and rlly loud and goofy. if u dont know wat extra means, extra just means... damn how do u explain it. extra is when someone always be doing the most for no reason. extra ppl are the type of ppl to laugh loud af and knock over stuff laughing when someone says a joke. extra ppl wear rlly over the top eye catching outfits. extra ppl act in more exaggerated ways than the average person, especially in terms of being funny. livi was like a class clown in school. livis a pretty loud person lol. i think im more of a quiet person than she is. i told u yesterday at a party id prolly be chilling on a couch eating sum food. but livi would be the type at a party to get super turnt jump on a table and twerk or something. shes just rlly extra. but i love it tho. she also has moments of being calm. shes very sensitive to ppls emotions and knows when to get serious. when im sad shes always mature af and got my back. she speaks 2 me calmly. shes very wise and she has a motherly side for ppl who she loves. i just think livi and i are similar in some ways (like how we are nice and loyal and stick up for ppl) but idk we are different too. livi is more "extra" than i am. more sassy, more bold, more funny (in my opinion)

event planners? i thought they said that personality type doesn't like to plan XD i could see me being a tour guide tho id prolly be a lazy tour guide pfff ahaha id just be like yea so this is the zoo and yeh its cool. that's a lion rite there. that lion is cool too.

thanks lumie i appreciate and i like u too

lol ur too damn nice wtffff? wtf? thanks Lumie ur nice asf. ur awesomeness cant fit into 4 lil letters either. u'll always be so much more than that

wats india like if ur comfy sharing/ i know India is diverse af and u cant speak for every part cuz its a huge country but from ur personally experience how would u say it is?

im wondering if its different from America and if so, how

i have never been to India and haven't heard a lot about it but id like to

*leads Lumie 2 my room. sits her down on a cozy beanbag. give her blanket. sits down in front of her and gets ready to listen to her.

fish tank update-

ammonia and nitrite is back to zero. but now ph is too high. it is 9 when its supposed to be 7.

to solve that, i ordered driftwood. that lowers ph. i also bought a chemical that sets water ph to 7. hopefully that'll solve my issue of too high ph water

the reason my water ph is high is bc i found out that my tap water is alkaline/ basic. my tap water from my sink is 9 ph and its making the fish tank be that way too. the stuff should be here in 1-2 days. if things go good Ill be able to get King next Thursday. this upcoming thursday

livis party w her and me will be tomorrow so ima wrap gifts tonite with my cmas wrapping paper

hey my freakin awesome amazing damn fam xD it's okie, I kinda just came for a little while to reply to your post. didn't stay for long. I am doing good now.

well, I don't see any reason to see you any differently other than I already do. that would be weird af and nobody should that. ooh okay, so you are white, black and Hispanic. I like Neapolitan ice cream was a clever thing to say smh, wonder how they thought of it. it's kinda cool. btw, I dunno but it kinda sounds dope to be so many things. I don't see why would people be racists.

I don't know why people would want to guess someone's race though unless of course they were just curious or you wanted to share. I have never asked someone of their race, I don't know just didn't seem like a question I wanted to know an answer too. I'm chill with everyone.

you could pass as an indian, after you learn more hindi maybe. smh. I don't really know how people with some different race look like, yeah I'm sort of stupid lol. it just doesn't matter to me. I always get it wrong if I had to guess, but it's like I don't really have any reason to assume or guess.

I know that you wouldn't have been racist even if you weren't mixed. I'm glad you don't care about other people's race, I don't either. be whatever the fork you are, man. if we vibe, we vibe, if we don't, we don't. it will be because of how we are as people not because you are from a specific region. sure in terms of culture, if someone feels their race sort of defines them, it's fine. I like how you didn't mention any race, you're nice, mareo. I'm sorry you were bullied for your race. I'm glad you didn't generalize, that's very mature. exactly, it's not the whole race, it's just one person. there are always some people who choose to be good and not be like "I am this race and I hate yours cause xxx" it just seems very immature and doesn't make sense.

I'm so sorry little mareo went through all that, he didn't deserve it *hugs* I can understand, it must have been so weird and hurtful for you when you were small, you were just trying to be everyone's friend and they were bullying you for no reason. I can't believe your mom did it too, that's so sad. so you and her look quite different, I see.

racism is highly offensive. I don't really know why people have to comment??? like um? it's just stupid to me. I wish people were more respectful of their differences.

I slept earlier than usual last night, didn't have that good of sleep but I'm doing okay.

yooooooo mareomallow my fam, the legend who's the coolest person everrrrr and sweeeet af. thank you for being proud of me, I am trying. my grandma cooks better than my mom lmao, don't tell her XD

my brother talks to my grandma more, that's the sole reason. he's better at keeping contacts with family members and he's a bit older than me so people are always asking about his life and stuff, the only question I get is "how my studies are going?" it's all good, doesn't bother me. I don't like to share much about me anyway.

bua is like an aunt yeah, she's my dad's sibling. you're so sweet mareo smh, thank you. she doesn't get to spend time with her kids tho, my grandma has to take care of her kids in place of her. but it's fine, I guess. her career is flourishing like anything, whatever she's doing, she's doing great and we're all happy for her. she even persuaded me to study medicine haha, everyone wanted me to but I was like "no u" lol. I don't think medicine is for me, or maybe it's because I'm lazy af with science.

I know you never try to pressure me to do anything I'm uncomfy with, I really appreciate you for being so understanding. no, I never feel pressured by you. I will tell you no if I have to, it would likely be hard but thanks for letting me know that I can. I know I can safely tell you anything that's on my mind. you're so nice wtf, stop being so nice to me or I'll call the cops. it's illegal to be this nice XD

what songs would you select? I know both of them are sad smh. trust me, mareo if you ever ask me about my favourite songs, they're all sad af because those are the songs I love the best. wish I knew why, they're so feel-y feel-y. I like emotional stuff because I don't know, I just like sadness sometimes. is it weird? I learned teardrops on my guitar for a crush I had on someone smh, it didn't work in my favour, we don't talk anymore lol.

smh I am not studious but I try to study because well, I have to. the education system is forked up lol. okay well if I talk about the Kashmir thing, it will take a while but I'll try to be brief if possible, I dunno yet. so well, the state of Kashmir is divided between India and Pakistan ever since we split and there has been a dispute about having Kashmir completely. I think Kashmir wants to be something separate and doesn't like being divided and have two countries fight over it, there are some bad things happening there, with the army and everything (that's another story and I don't think it would be nice to talk about here but if you wanna know, let me know, I will tell you sometime). under an article in our constitution, Kashmir was given some special privileges, one of which made it autonomous. but last year, this article was demolished. the time wasn't nice for Kashmir, they were under lockdown basically. no internet, no gatherings allowed, and lots of troops were sent there, so people were literally locked in and I think no one was allowed there, tourists were sent back too. it was a presidential order and it almost felt as if there was some terrorist attack, it must have felt like that. a lot of Kashmiris don't really want to be a part of India because it basically snatched away the rights they were given before. they want independence, I think. there is some religion factor also here but I wouldn't want to speak about in here. Kashmir feels they will again feel like a minority if people from other states migrate there and buy a property. so like it's a thing, for now, I haven't kept up with the news which is sad. we had a great debate on this last year, I wasn't a part of it but damn it was beautiful. I'll stop for now lol, I hope it helped you a little to give you a faint idea of the situation? there are people who probably know more about this than I do. yeah, I could be a good advisor, I think hehe.

jk jk, cussing will be allowed lol. I have been cussing a lot too. cussing will be allowed. you will always be welcome in Lumieville, you'll be like a special guest. audio theatre sounds so dope! I would definitely have that be a thing there. great idea mareo oreo, as I said you're creative af. I love how you totally get me always haha.

lol my mom loves doing dishes, I wish I knew why. she is always cleaning something at home, she hardly ever sits still and just relax. if she is, you better not disturb her tho haha. I am sure you decorate just fine smh. lol, I love to decorate things myself so I won't need to hire anyone XD I am sure you'd give some good inputs tho. aye, thanks for calling me cute hehe. so you change yourself a little with the people you around, that's nice and chill, mareo. I guess all of us do it to some extent. with you, I am in a very talk talk mood smh but I usually don't talk so much because I never have so much to say lol.

I really really believe I am an ENFP if we talk about those functions Ne, Fi, Te, Si but oh well. I wouldn't say I am either an ENFP or an ISFJ, I am me and I just got these two things when I took the test. what I do is I select parts of these things which define me and save them. I don't need to completely fit in, it's good to just feel understood from time to time.

tornado air would definitely be angry lumie lmao. but for real though, imagine if air resistance wasn't a thing and it rained, we could literally die xD thanks for saying I am a gentle and healing type, that's really sweet. I could be, I guess lol.

yeah, I would do the chill music thing, the kind I listen to usually. I would definitely share the song with you :)

lol I don't know, I am usually so quiet in public, there is nothing left BUT to observe people, you know lol. so I have time and energy. sometimes I don't, it's not an always thing but whenever I get the chance, I do that.

maybe I am in touch with my feelings, could be that probably. I wish I knew a better way to describe it. maybe it's like whenever I am happy, I am also afraid or careful to feel it because I feel soon enough I'll be sad so I am sorta sad too. something like that maybe, I dunno.

sigh i spent like 2 hrs working on this assignment. it was due 2 hrs ago anyway but i fell asleep after an hr of working on it. anyway it didn't save any of my f*cking answers and i rlly dont feel like doing it. its already late anyway. this isn't fair i feel sad asf now that i worked on that for 2 hrs and its just gone now and idk wat to do