I cant keep friends
First off...I've never had a friendship that's lasted longer than 3 years and each one ends the same. They find another friend and push me away until I pretty much dont exist. I thought maybe my college friends would be different but three years after we became friends they have already drifted off. One wont even look at me anymore and I still talk to the other but it's different. Not as comfortable as it once was. I don't know what it is that causes it. I'm just not sure what I keep doing. I know I make mistakes and say things without thinking when I'm frustrated or upset but idk if that is what causes it or if there are more underlying things.
Well I just realized there's no private way to contact each other that I've seen, I just joined. Dang, well I hope it at least helps to know there are others feeling the same feels in the same boat. Wish you all the happiness cause you deserve it
@DYINGARCHITECT
You're not alone friend! I hope you at least find some comfort in that and I'm glad you shared with everyone. I do apologize, but I have no advice to offer as I am in the same boat. Hopefully, at some point in our lives, we all find our tribes.
@DYINGARCHITECT hey i feel the same way... i end up thinking there's something about me that isn't suitable for friendship. i've never been close to people in my friend groups, always watching things from the sidelines and only really friends with 1 person as the rest of the group mingle altogether and share about each other's lives. was it the way i was raised? or do i just have no interest in other people? maybe i don't deserve or need friends? it's all very confusing. i'm not a talkative person and do not openly share about myself. i'm thinking that's what holds other people back from opening up to me as well...
saying something you didn't fully intend while being frustrated or upset happens to everyone. happens to me all the time as well, and i regret some awful things i've said to the people i care about. i'm still working on it though and trying to apologize immediately and understand myself in the sense like why did i just say such a thing? i find it's slowly helping me understand myself better.
I feel I can't keep friends because have too may problems, too many many responsibilities and not enough money. I feel lonely and depressed most of the time.
