Am I Pathetic for still feeling this way?

IDK how to put this in short, but last night, I let myself just...wallow in my sadness, about how upset I was that my guy friend (who I like more than a friend - we have actually both confessed mutual feelings to each other.) that he didn't tell me earlier about him wanting "me time" and him finding it silly that I even ask for a roundabout time to talk next. There was a point, where we began talking everyday - it wasn't announced, or anything but it was his idea. For a while, I just went along with it.

Lately, though, I think we both realised that it's not such a good idea - if we have some days in-between to not talk and do other things, talk to others et cetera...then we will naturally have more to talk about, when we chat over audio call next. We won't feel exhausted from one another, I say it's a good idea. I just wished he said so earlier and that's what upset me - 'cause it made me feel like a burden. I monologued about my sadness in that - yes, that would annoy anyone. After my seemingly endless, sobby monologue, I asked for feedback. He repeated my words, paused and after I said "go on", he said "bye", hung up and blocked me from calling or texting me again on FB Messenger.

I was shocked and the crying stopped. I knew I was even more irritating for trying to text his mobile, despite knowing very well he wanted nothing to do with me after all that. Surprisingly, though, he replied with "ok" to my request to think about what I said. I was gonna send a voice mail, (I didn't know how to send it, lol) after he didn't respond to my mobile call. He shortly after called me back...to my surprise, let me know we could play Roll20 tomorrow and said "it's okay", to my apologies, begging and all that shameful stuff.

I couldn't sleep consistently well, woke up at 3 a.m'ish and still feel down now. The "bye" still repeats in my head, so abrupt and more hurtful and terrible than me crying endlessly about the former. The time we arranged for Roll20 today has yet to happen, but this still hurts to think about for me. :/