I'm struggling - any advice/insight is welcome
I never thought that I'd be struggling so much and fighting so hard to keep my relationship afloat. I so badly want everything to work out but with my boyfriend I no longer know, and it makes my heart ache so much.
We both battle depression/anxiety and it's always a roller coaster, and when the lows hit, they hit hard.
We're currently at our lowest so far in the entirety of our relationship, he had a huge rift with his family and on top of that the mother of his children won't let his children spend time with him for the past few months. I've been here for it all but he's doing everything to push me away and none of my help seems to be what he wants. I don't even know how to be there for him anymore. He's been so resentful at me for having my family and being able to spend the holidays with him - even though I've tried to include him on multiple occasions he always denies.
A part of me doesn't even know if I want to keep being there for him because it's breaking my own heart. I just feel so lost.
@intellectualmaya8120
I am sending you a big hug right now because I can tell you really need one! You sound like an amazing, supportive and considerate partner. And I can hear in your post how much this is hurting you and causing you distress.
Sometimes nothing we do can help the other person and that hurts too, but the important thing is that you are recognizing that this situation is now impacting your own mental well-being. That is really insightful and something to think about. You matter. Your happiness is important too.
I hope that you are able to enjoy time with your family even if he chooses not to join you. Sometimes, you have to do what is best for you, it is ok.
Sending you vibes for peace and happiness ❤️
