Help with coping
So I am in a situation that I never been in before. Me and my boyfriend have been together over 2 years and deeply in love with each other. I always knew he was hiding something which I assumed it was another woman or something of that nature. But come to find out through discoveries and through arguments that what he was hiding was a secret fetish that he was very embarrassed about. Periodically I would find women's underwear and his belonging. So he finally admitted to having a fetish with women used underwear. Later he admitted that how he acquires them it's not from cheating, but from purchasing them online. He is very embarrassed but claims that he has not done anything wrong to me because he has not cheated physically. But to me it is still hurtful because just the fact knowing that he gets turned on by the scent of other women that it feels like cheating to me. He says he loves me but this is something that he has been addicted to for a lot of years. I'm not sure what to do about the situation I've accepted it for the most part but at times when I think about it it crushes my heart sometimes I want to leave him or make him stop doing this I just don't know what to do I just hope he would stop on his own once he realizes how bad this hurts me. I feel like I'm not enough satisfaction for him please someone help