I'm terrified of relationships
I didn't really know where to post this, but hi, I'm 17 and I am scared of being in a relationship. I have only tried dating once and it only lasted a month, ever since then I don't really think i would be a good girlfriend. I really would like to date, but I guess I don't know how. I was token out to eat with my last boyfriend and I was unable to eat hardly anything, I felt terrible because he had to waste money on me. We also went to a dance and I felt like I let him down, I told him before that I can't dance, so we just sat the entire time. I was very shaking and unsure of what to do. I was basically panicking and wishing he hadn't wasted his time taking me. I really drained the fun out of going. I had heard about people telling him at school why I didn't kiss him when we had been dating a while, so I asked him if he wanted to kiss me. He did but it was awkward because I didn't kiss back, I was still pretty panicky. I felt bad, because i was disgusted by it. I didn't want to be, but I didn't like it. It was a disaster I was shaking so hard he thought I was cold and shivering. I really want to try a relationship again but I'm afraid I'll just let someone down and be a terrible gf. :c