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Devilishnephilim
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts17 Forum posts39 Forum upvotes36 Current upvotes36 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2016 Member sinceAugust 25, 2015
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Whu do I not feel friendship?
Relationship Stress / by Devilishnephilim
Last post
 May 5th, 2016
...See more I don't know why, but I'm having a difficulty feeling friendship and attachment. I lost contact with some of my old friends when I moved, and i can hardly feel out friendship anymore. Even the people I know now and speak to on a daily basis, I hardly have a connection with them. The only one I feel any bond with is a friend i recently started dating, but sometimes my feelings seem almost imaginary. Also, I am having difficulty making friends for this reason (and my lack of confidence in meeting strangers, i honestly feel odd even using anonymous chats). I just don't understand how to make a friend and feel connected to them.
Weird Feelings
Depression Support / by Devilishnephilim
Last post
 February 22nd, 2016
...See more Idk what this would be related to, possibly my depression or anxiety. I have been coping well with these but this started happening sometime after I got these under control. I wasn't sure, but I have been having some difficulties latelty. I have been experiencing times of feeling really distanced from myself. I sort of zone out completely somedays, and get this feeling that i am just a puppet in a way. I kind of just drag my body along with me, it almost feels numb. When I get this way, I also feel really diagusted ar people. Everything seems to look clearer and hyperrealistic? I start to feel the area around me and see people as more of biological meat sacks than actual people. Its really been affecting me, when i have these episode. I can't concentrate, especially on people talking. Words flow right through me, and i just feel far away from them. Thats the best I can explain it. Has anyone else experienced this? Can someone tell me what it is, or what its caused by?
What is considered a friend?
Relationship Stress / by Devilishnephilim
Last post
 September 12th, 2015
...See more I was talking to some people I have class with and one of them told me we weren't friends, that we are just acquaintances. He said we never hung out or messaged much outside of school, so we weren't friends. It made me think that if that is true I haven't really had any friends. This kind of made me sad. What is the distinction between real friends and mere acquaintances?
I'm terrified of relationships
Relationship Stress / by Devilishnephilim
Last post
 September 5th, 2015
...See more I didn't really know where to post this, but hi, I'm 17 and I am scared of being in a relationship. I have only tried dating once and it only lasted a month, ever since then I don't really think i would be a good girlfriend. I really would like to date, but I guess I don't know how. I was token out to eat with my last boyfriend and I was unable to eat hardly anything, I felt terrible because he had to waste money on me. We also went to a dance and I felt like I let him down, I told him before that I can't dance, so we just sat the entire time. I was very shaking and unsure of what to do. I was basically panicking and wishing he hadn't wasted his time taking me. I really drained the fun out of going. I had heard about people telling him at school why I didn't kiss him when we had been dating a while, so I asked him if he wanted to kiss me. He did but it was awkward because I didn't kiss back, I was still pretty panicky. I felt bad, because i was disgusted by it. I didn't want to be, but I didn't like it. It was a disaster I was shaking so hard he thought I was cold and shivering. I really want to try a relationship again but I'm afraid I'll just let someone down and be a terrible gf. :c
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