Getting over someome from my past...

Hi.

Please, if it is, I would like to express some lingering thoughts that I have attempted to stifle about someone I used to have feelings for- I tend to have a bad habit of being really articulate, so please bare with me. These are thoughts I have attempted to stifle in hopes that they would get buried, but they keep surfacing and bulging. So, I figured I would process and express said thoughts.

To put things into perspective, I am 19 years old now- These feelings started when I attended public school for the first time in my life in seventh grade. I have always been a quiet introvert who keeps to himself and likes doing his own thing, but I was particularly shy in school. This is likely to be expected, a regular thought that circulated in my head was the possibility of dating somebody.

Then, there was a girl that came up and spoke to me (what she said would involve me going off in a tangent that requires an energy for explanation that I do not possess); the manner in which she approached - I am so sorry, this is incredulously blunt - appealed to me on a "sexual" level. She stood kind of close to ne and paid me direct attention- it made me a little uncomfortable, but comforted at the same time.

We had multiple interactions throughout seventh grade- just being around her caused me to feel like jelly. In the summer following, we became Facebook friends and I messaged her.

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