Will I ever be able to fix this?
I can't believe it. I can't believe I still have feelings for you even though it's been eight months. I've been through a lot this past year. Everything has gone wrong for me. But what I want most is for you to be on my side again. To be with me. The one thing I wish didn't happen this year was you leaving me. I would've gotten by this year just fine if you were here. But since you left I've just been broken. And what's worse is how much you hate me. You telling me you want to forget me still rings loudly in my head. I wanted to apologize but you won't give me the chance. I look at you now and see how happy you are with your new boyfriend and such. It's like nothing ever happened. I'm glad at least that you were the one to bounce back from this. Me on the other hand I'm falling apart. It's funny how I still think of you like a goddess yet you think of me as trash. I can never bring myself to hate you even if I want to. Maybe it's because I'm crazy. The only thing I want is to get back with you again. Throughout these past 8 months I've learned just how much you mean to me. Id do anything for a second chance despite how low my chances are of getting it.
I kinow what you are going through, I ahve the same feelings about my ex. we were togetehr for 4 years, when we aplit we did not even row, she ismply tod me she had stopped loving me.
I am now with sombody new she is on her own , however I still have these desires and feeling about here ever day.
it hurts because the reletionship mattered. Take peace from that and try to move on, other wisae these feeling will comsume you.
you can moved forward and just trreasurer the good memeories.
1 thing i have done o, is I have my song of hope. which I sing in my head every time I think of the ex. this stops me getting depressed about her/
