We broke up
I've been dating this guy long distance for about 4/5 months now - and I realised it just wasn't working due to us being so busy we could hardly see eachother - I hated doing it, but I had to break up with him, and although I know that it was 100% the right thing to do (and he agreed) it still hurts, and I can't seem to stop crying 😔
Smallone, That is a hard thing to go through.. I know. I've been there too. Just think how much your world will open up now that you took that tough step. ( same is true for your ex). When you are comitted to someone like that, you are rightly limited in the relationships that may come before you. Since you have a heart that is true and loyal, you knew that you didn't want to hide or cheat..and that speaks well for your character. Still, I know it hurts and it will for awhile. You will cry and cry and one day you won't cry as much. As much as you feel pain right now, just allow yourself to feel a litle relief since you got through that hurdle, and feel proud that you did the right thing and you are strong.
Be gentle with yourself and pamper yourself in little ways that soothe you - and get outside if you can. Nature walks are healing and good for your body,mind and soul. You can even scream that life isn't fair if you want- because it isn't.
Hold on to a little faith that things will get better. Many of us here do care and me especially since I read your note and I can relate. Here is a big warm hug.
@SmallOne13 I'm terribly sorry if I somehow upset you with what I'm about to say, so if you feel especially vulnerable, perhaps you shouldn't read what I have to say, but again, it's up to you.
As I was reading your post, a chill went down my spine because...what you describe is basically the exact reason I'm here again as well. Another 4-ish month long ldr gone bad, only this time it was my decision to break up, rather than a joint one.
I'll vent about it in my own post, so no worries, I guess I just wanted to say, believe it or not, sometimes when you feel so hurt and alone in this big, mean world, surprisingly enough there are always others out there like you. Our story may not be exactly the same, but right now all that matters is that we support one another, so maybe at least one or two fewer people have to go what we went through. In the same spirit I wish you all the best and enough strength to endure, I know you'll need all you can get.