Wanna vent.

Dealing with seperation is taking a toll on meI didn't really choose to leave my husband, he made me do it. At first, I was really angry about it, but as time went on, I started to feel less frustrated and angry. He wanted me to change to meet his expectations so that he could love me, it was a career choice but it was something I wasn't good at and didn't enjoy. I tried to make things better, i tried to reconcile, i suggested him marriage therapy but he made it difficult by adding a condition that I couldn't meet, he rejected to go on therapy together. I tried my best to learn what he wanted, but I didn't make much progress and I learned slowly. He was abusive to me in the last year of our marriage. I don't think a marriage can work if there are conditions attached to it. I'm not sure what to do because I know my marriage was toxic and abusive, but I'm scared to get a divorce because I don't want to be alone and I'm not sure what will happen in the future.

I know i had my enough shares of mistakes in our marriage. But i really did try in our last year of marriage. I even tolerated verbal,emotional abuse for the sake of marriage and for hurting him during our fights in our first year of marriage.