This is so difficult to say….
I hope she never sees this, because I don’t know what her response would be. It’s a harsh reality and she doesn’t understand, and I won’t tell her. But these years with her were great… I just wish we never made contact again. See we knew each other in 2013, stopped talking for some reason, and we’ve been in relationships with each other since she messaged me in 2018. I just don’t want to remember anymore. I don’t want to see her in my head. In my dreams. When I close my eyes. I want the dreams where she’s with someone else, they need to stop. I need to move on, even if she comes back I don’t know if I can deal with it and her like before. I JUST WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING.
@johnng823
Hello
I hope you're able to come out of this pain and find peace. We have a self help guide on ways to step away from mental loops. If you're feeling stuck in the same thought patterns, it might be worth having a look when you get a chance.
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Peace to you.