The whole situation
My husband and I have been together for 7 years. I had a son when we met and shortly after found out that I was pregnant with our son we have together. I was 18, him 27. Life was hard. At 6 months pregnant I found messages between him and a girl, he was asking for nudes and calling her baby and asking when they could meet up. I flipped. I forgave him. Fast forward to our son being 3 months old, he forgot to log his email off the computer and I got on. Found emails to a different girl but same situation. Again, I flipped but I forgave. Fast forward again 2 years, we are living on our own with our kids and things seemed to be better but he was on his phone a lot. So I
Sorry to hear that. I went through something similar in my life and it really hurt me bad... It makes me feel awful to think my girl was doing that behind my back and it's fueling my desire to find love elsewhere. I hate that, and I don't want to break up (after 20 years together) but I don't want to live waiting for the next lie to come out. So I live with my heart on my sleeve, falling for anyone who treats me nicely at work or in other parts of life.... so it's understandable that you lashed out with your own infidelity, but I'm sure it didn't help the situation. Maybe noe that you've both messed up you can decide if you truly want to love and support each other... I hope you can find peace for yourself and your home.
