Still getting over heartbreak months later!
So back in 2013 I met this guy that I had being working with for quiet a while, we became really great friends but unknown to him I started getting feelings for him We started hanging out going out for regular visits to costa for coffees and going to the cinema's until eventally he asked me out on a nice romantic date which was amazing this was around So Argust 2014 when we started a relationship, things was going great He was my best friend and my soul mate I loved him with all my heart I really adored him we would spend lots of time together doing things we enjoyed having a laugh we would act like a pair of kids (it was just so fun) I loved his company. In june 2015 He proposed to me we was talking about getting married & having kids. I was so happy I couldnt of being anymore happier. from argust 2014 to september 2015 we had being on 3 holidays together it was amazing was a fantastic experience but when we came off our holiday in september something changed he changed I couldnt put my finger on it what about him changed, little did I know that in October 2015 He broke off our relationship after a year and 3 months, he just said it was over that was it. I couldnt understand why he had ended it he never give me a explanation all I could think about what that He kept telling me how much he loved me I mean I helped him espically when he lost his job & he was having trouble with his family I was the only one there for him while he was going through it I would also think about all the great months we had and had to think of what went wrong but nothing stood out to me as far as I knew we was both happy, then finally weeks after I found out that, he was stealing from his family and he blamed me for it he ended our relationship to make it look convincing that it was me to his family. It hurt so much I loved him and I felt like it was a kick in the teeth like I had done something wrong when deep down I knew I hadnt we havent spoke since Its been a really hard few months I am moving on but all these feelings are still there cant seem to get over what he did to me I still love him I miss the person he used to be the person I first met I believed he was my everything my bestfriend and soul mate!
@Kerry1991 I'm so sorry you went through something so heartbreaking. It sounds like an absolutely horrible experience. 
I can't even imagine the betrayal you must feel to have someone you love, not be the person you thought they were. It sounds as if you are still reeling from the experience of being betrayed and that's alright. It's not going to be an overnight experience to realize the situation fully in your heart. I'm a big believer in allowing yourself to grieve the way you have to and not giving into the pressures of "moving on" before you are ready. Your heart will know when it's time to move past this situation and I truly believe that you have already started that process. Coming here and telling your story is a big step in the right direction and you should be very proud of yourself! I know I am! 
I think of myself in two parts. Logically I may know something but emotionally I may not. It sounds like logically you understand what he did. Emotionally, you are still grieving the relationship and trying to come to terms with it. That is always the hardest part to go through but I am confident that with enough time and patience, you can do this! Be gentle with yourself, you're a brave person and you will get through this.
Good luck 
@KindListening thank you that means so much to me yeah I still hurt till now the betrayal is worse than what he had actually done I mean I loved him so much
@Kerry1991 hi there I am really sorry you had to go through this it seems like something kind of simular to what I went through so can still imagine how much hurt it caused you. its the most painful experience I can ever imagine anyone goes through.seems like he betrayed you and that it all still hurts even till this day. How as your life being since all this happened?
@amicableCherry8075 yeah it isnt easy its been 8 months now and I am still living with the heartbreak my depression as got worse I am not sure what to do. since the break up my life as got worse my friends have been distant ever since they dont want anything to do with me my family dont really understand how hard it as been on me I cry alot not about him anymore just about how much trust i put into the relationship for him to treat me the way he did
@Kerry1991 Yeah I get how hard it must be for you and the way you feel is really okay its completely normal to feel this way it doesnt matter how long after a relationship it is sometimes it takes longer theres no time limit. Time is a really great healer it really is. why do you feel that your friends are treating you this way? breakups are always hard but they are always different too. How do you feel today?
@amicableCherry8075 thanks for understanding. I am feeling much better this evening normally around this time it all kicks in. my friends stopped speaking to me after me and my ex broke up. I dont know what lies he told them but I feel that he did. if he can betray me then I wouldnt put it past him to lie to make me out to be the bad one. when we broke up i had no one I was so alone, its only recently that I have started going out and trying to enjoy my life I have made a few new friends which was really hard but I knew I had to make that step forward I am trying to make the best of my life and move on, I know it will take time but I think that is all I have at the moment.
