Some recommendations if any would be lovely :)
Hi wonderful people!
Ive mentioned on this thread before that my bf broke up with me - because he couldn’t provide for me and didn’t want to lead me on
I saw a future with him and I wanted him! Although, I do admit it was difficult to communicate with him to the point where he becomes passive aggressive and I would have to constantly ask him if he was okay - I resented him for this, and I did think about parting ways with him (it was an on and off idea) for a month. But I did want things to work out because I loved him for who he was, and therefore communicated with him often so I can understand him better (I particularly communicated with him a lot more on slightly more serious topics a week before the break up because he seemed more passive aggressive and distant - which in my opinion, think it was the reason for the break up)
It’s been over a week already, and I’m not crying my eyes out or anything, and I don’t feel immensely sad (like in some of those break up videos). I think I don’t feel that immense sadness because I knew I was already unhappy in the relationship, but I still love him and want him. I cried my eyes out for the first 3 days or something, but after that I’ve just felt a bit depressed or just a bit nostalgic, like I miss him but I also don’t? I just don’t feel immensely sad.
This might sound weird or maybe you won’t understand what I’m saying, but I’ve been scared that I’ve been trying to deny my feelings or hold my emotions back without realising it - so I’m scared that it’s going to end up coming back to me in the future and breaking me when I think of him and see him again (overall, I don’t think I’m holding back any emotions? I don’t know anymore..) I think I might also be holding on to a bit of hope that he might come back and be with me and I know it’s dangerous but I really don’t know how to get rid of this hope.
Does anyone have any recommendations as to how I can stop hoping or at least fade the idea of him coming back?