@Trying2018 it's really hard to go through this alone. I can't imagine how it must feel to be in your position. Being honest about your infidelities is a good thing; it seems as though your husband has a problem with being open. Men are hard to tap into. As the previous commenter stated, if you love him than you should fight like hell, agreed but I feel like you've been doing alot of fighting without any result from him. First, you must look into yourself. Make sure you love you love, as cheesy as that sounds. Secondly, give him some distance, maybe he needs time to truly understand if he wants to work on things. Third, you're far better off focusing on you for awhile, I promise it will make a difference. Do you guys have children? If so, maybe that's the reason you're trying to make thing work? Either way, you need you right now and it's unfair that he's doing these things, it sounds like he needs some deeper help...5 dating accounts is a problem, seeing as you guys are now married. I'm really sorry that you're going through all of this.