I feel sad today.
I've been riding the anger and the relief for the past few days and so it hasn't been too hard, the breakup. But, today... today, he's been taking up too much space in my head. I've been worrying that he will start stalking me - or that he is stalking me quietly. I'm worrying that he will show up and demand that I come back to him. At the same time, I am worried that he has finally decided to walk away and he no longer cares and that it is finally over.
I feel sad and miss feeling loved. I miss hearing the words "I love you". I do. But, then I remember the price I paid for that love. And, it's not worth it. I know that it's not. I am free. The universe is washing away the pain and the grief and resentment every time I exhale. Every time I inhale, I am stronger.
@helpfulNest9115
You went through a break up! That is never easy. I can understand that you're having different feelings at the same time. Yes you're feeling sad but look at yourself! You're a strong person. You know that the love wasn't worth the price you paid for it and you know you're free now. Yeah with every breath there's a lot of chances for you to explore the wide world. You're going to deal with this situation very well. You have learned from it and that's itself is a very amazing thing. You don't have to go through all that alone though. We are here for you and we always do believe in you.
Today is a little better. He's still renting space in my mind more than I like, but I'm making progress. I'm hopeful to move past this and grow strong again.
My feet are back under me. I'm starting to feel stronger. I am still afraid that he might pop back up somehow or find me/ break through all of my blocks and contact me. That fear plagues me. But, other than that, my worries are few. I'm growing strong and I'm building a better understanding of who I am.
I have a few social outings planned for the week and I'm staying positive.
@helpfulNest9115
It's never easy to move on from a breakup :) and you are doing great now. Indeed, you guys have had some lovely moments but also some bad ones, and we all like to be loved and cared, but it seems like that relationship was not very healthy for you.
Let that relationship become a part of your memory and focus on self-enrichment <3 you can do this
