How to Stop Feeling Awkward? Halp ;-;
Soooo I've actually been chatting with this wonderful guy for more than a year. We met in an online forum, and at the time I had a bf and he was kinda like... my love consultant of some sort x'D
I broke up with my bf on September. And this guy I'm friend with... well, I start to develop feelings for him.
He's funny, interesting, smart, sweet, caring, and is just an awesome person in general. I just admire him so much.
At first I thought it was just admiration. But then I started getting awkward when we were chatting. I mean, we have never met, but online relationship is a real thing, rite, and my feelings is genuine.
I don't know what I want, I like him so much, but we're separated thousands of miles and I don't even know whether the feelings is reciprocated or not!
Moreover, I know he used to like his female college friend he used to hang out with, and she likes him a lot, and has met with his family, went on a prom date with him, etc. He never mentions her name lately, and once when I asked whether she was doing great he told me yes, but didn't elaborate. He usually told me things he did to prank her lol he's just a real prankster.
I'm kinda wondering whether he starts to not like her.... although maybe it's just my wishful, selfish thinking ;-;
I mean, I feel like I am not ready for a relationship, but I kept blurting out how much I like/admire him and flirted unconsciously. I REALLY didn't mean it but I'm like an open book, what should I do? D'x