He cheated on me with prostitutes for the entirety of our relationship...

There. I said it. And God does it feel good to actually verbalize this fact.

I'm just going through such massive disillusionment right now and am horrified at the fact I was so thoroughly duped for years. Is this how people getting out of cults feel?


Anyway, it feels good to start addressing his abuse: physical, sexual, psychological, emotional.
Though I'm not completely prepared to pick the experience apart, I see a therapist on Wednesday.

Bleh :/ Any words of wisdom, shared experiences.... Anything would be appreciated. I'm hoping to channel this pain into making me a better person, though currently? It's hard to believe I'll able to be able to trust again but deep down I know I'll be so very happy someday. It'll take me by surprise and happen sooner than I'd ever expect. I just need to focus on becoming the person I was before the crazy-making, before the gaslighting started, before I was second guessing my every perception. Ugh :(

But now I'm ready. I'm so ready.


And I genuinely appreciate you all!


So, has anyone experienced anything similar?? I'd LOVE to hear your stories.