Girlfriend was also my best and only friend, now i'm completely alone
Not reallyone for seeking help but feeling out of options and tired of being so alone.
So i was with my girlfriend since November 2013 and we both struggled with depression and had few friends, she was my rock as i was hers and i guess cause of that i thought she'd never leave plus all the lovey dovey stuff she said about me being the only one and how she couldn't do it without me (yeah we both hadd our scary near final moments) saying i'd frequently return cause damn i was sure she was the one i mean i saw my future with her.
She was my whole world, i literally lived for her as she met me as i was planning something scary and final. If it meant she would be safe or happy i would have died for her in a second, not healthy so i've been told. So yeah it was a pretty dependant realationship i needed her as much as she needed me but it wasn't just that support it was true feeling aswell we both showed and proved to eachother many times over.
Then at the start of Feb, out of no where, she says she's changed and needs space so how about a break. I'm fine with that i've given her space before so okay but then after a week she says this isn't what she wants she's changed and it needs to end. Well i accepted this cause i've always put what she wants first but secretly i took it terribly, plumeted went back to thinking like i used to in final terms.
Things have slowly improved but she was my best and only friend and i saw her most everyday, i've never been social but now i have no one and i'm feeling so alone it's crushing. I don't know how she changed cause she stopped seeing me but from talking in the days following it the tiniest things would set her off with a weird new anger i've never seen before, she pretty much hates me now so no support from her anymore.
Been asking myself how i survivedbefore her but then it hits me, i wasn't. Anyway that's it, quite a lengthy story sorry.Don't know what i'm looking for in posting this, but i guess this site has helped a bit in the past, just hoping something will happen to help.
@DisgracefuIFrog
how are you now?
@DisgracefuIFrog hey sorry you have been going through this frustration. Your story sound very familiar to me as a similar thing happened between me and my boyfriend last month. The situation was same i asked for breakup and small things about him set me off so much. My reason was how i was made to realize by a friend that I deserved better than what he was offering me. I was open to him about it the day i asked for breakup and two days later he apologized and has been treating me with so much love and care and support. Just talk to her about it, if you think you both still have a chance. All the best.
