Finding it difficult to move on, to re discover happiness.
I had a break up in August. Our 5 year relationship ended up in a long distance relationship after I moved to another country on insistence of my mother and then Covid followed and I was unable to return even if I wanted to. Dont want to go into details but we were a happy couple and I never thought in my wildest imagination, he would ever break up with me. His declaring that pretty much killed me, it was like rug being pulled from underneath my feet. I have become chronically depressed and I cant seem to find happiness again. I dont want to live. I think of what would happen if I jumped in front of a train.
Just keep on going. Even if you don't feel like eating, eat. Even if you don't feel like moving, move. And cry and let it all out. My boyfriend and I broke up too. Last December and the first two weeks was too painful. I thought I would die. But, I have to remind myself that I have people in my life who cares about me. My mom and sisters. Things will get bearable. It won't be easy, the pain will come and go. Like waves, but believe me, it will be bearable. You just have to keep going. There will be days when you just feel empty. On those days fight for you. Fight for your happiness. Look for it. Look hard. Focus on what you have.
Same phase,even my ex is getting married,worst feeling ever,pray for me ppl