Feeling broken
I recently found out that my ex cheated on me right before he called it off. He said it was a one night stand and that he regrets it, but I’m almost positive he is still sleeping with this other girl. I can’t help but feeling worthless and like I’m never going to be enough for anyone. I’m constantly feeling let down and all I can do is blame myself. I feel stupid and like no one is ever going to fully love me. What’s so wrong with me that someone I thought loves me for almost a year and a half would cheat on me? I’m heart broken and feeling like the worst and disgusted in my own skin. Idk how to get past this or to get over him. I wish I could hate him, but I don’t. This hurts so bad and I hate myself.
Hey @djhmbtr
I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this. It sounds extremely painful and I'm sure it is dealing with this information and processing it. Just wanted to say that you've been heard and that there are so many people on this site willing to support and hear you out. Keep at it and I'm hoping the best for you! <3
Keep your head up! There is someone better for you out there. Trust me. Focus on you! Keep your interests alive. Enjoy your likes, get a meal and enjoy your surroundings when you are feeling brave. You will find your groove. I had the same thing happen but I was married 15 years. Exercise, eat healthy, talk with family, friends. Life will bring you better one day, you deserve it!
The feelings that you feel are temporary. They are a result of what’s going on in your life at the moment. This moment feels like forever, never ending but a year from now you’d look back and realize it was a short moment indeed. I wish you well. I feel the same from time to time. I broke up with my ex after he did not contest me for 2.5 weeks and he had a visitor at his home while we were together. No contest for 2.5 weeks a car in your drive wayyyyy mmmm sounds like he’s cheating. Didn’t want to wait around to find out so I broke it off. He isn’t even acknowledge my text. I feel like crap. But I’ll bounce back soon. I know it!
This happened to me too. My boyfriend lied about a one night stand, then she called me, he was in a full blown affair. It neatly killed me, but we worked it out through counseling and hard work. That was a year ago.
5 days ago I learned he was looking her up again. I'm crushed. To make matters worse instead of talking about it he ghosted me.
I'm lost, depressed, anxious, can't eat.
I barely make it into work.
I'm over medicating to get through my days.
I've lost 8 lbs.
I'm blindsided again.
He practically lived with me and we are or were moving in together.
What do I do now