A year later and
My ex called me out of nowhere after over a year of no contact. He cheated on me and I deleted everything about him from my life, and then I told him never to contact me again. He called with an unknown number so I answered and he started crying. He said he was just so happy that I answered because he’s been meaning to reach out to me but didn’t have the guts to do it.
He sounded so dark/sad, like he was out of it, but he said he wasn’t drunk (this was in the middle of the day). He said he still loves me and will always love me, that I was the only person who really saw him for who he was, that I was his only best friend, and that every time he’s sad he’d read my letters. He also said he hoped that one day we would find love in each other again. But I told him that we could be friends but I can’t go back and I don’t wanna take these calls. It’s not good for me. I don’t know what’s going on in his life that’s making him do this, and it worries me. But also, being with him created so much emotional turmoil that I just don’t want to be reminded of the drama.
This is feeling like a similar feeling for me, apart from my ex has been constantly been reaching out.
him reaching out just shows you how much you meant to him but also that you truly are deserving of that man that knew that previously.
I suppose i am replying to you here as if it is what I would tell a friend even though I’m not taking my own advice at the moment.
cheating proves who you are as a person. People can change and be better for others but I feel like it really is too painful to go back when you’ve been cheated on. If it is hard to have those conversations with an ex who cheated as you’ll always care for him however if he’s not bringing you happiness then you don’t owe him anything.
you got this girl! You deserve a life that is happy and anxiety free, keep moving forward.
Exactly. I agree in all points. I told him it’s not my responsibility to repair a relationship I didn’t break. Even if he wants to be friends, he has to do the work to prove to me that he’s worth trusting as a friend.
Absolutely agree, it’s not enough for someone that has broken your heart to just ask for forgiveness with no actions. They need to be a better person in themselves before they would be able to make another person happy.
I still feel terrible in myself sometimes that he hurt me so bad. When he calls to apologize it makes me feel like he is so sorry but I know when I’m alone my head tells me that I would never be able to do it to him so why do I deserve to have that in my life.
I am still hopefull that my person is still out there