My thoughts (sensitive, triggering)

I remember

The moment is all gone but here I am. I remember it all, the secrets I had to keep. Stories I told instead, I must have fallen down the stairs 30 times. We lived in a one story appartement back then. But nobody ever asked, maybe they didn't care enough.

Charming you said to the doctor she's clumsy. You had a good laugh about it.  I remember it. 
I didn't know better and part of me is still there, paralysed by memories.
 
Maybe I got lost, scared to remember it but the pieces of me still do. Every time you cross my mind makes me want to leave. Still have that picture of you, wanted to shred it to pieces and scream 'f you' and call it what it was. 

I know you long gone but the picture still here. I remember it tucked away in a dark corner reaching out for me.  It's a cruel memory that you given me, the image that's haunts me at night and wake up scared and afraid... can't get rid of it.

I remember being there again. That same old street with that crooked tree that cast a shadow over the house. I'd reach out but I know it's long gone. 
I'd still break down and cry when I remember, the secret that was me. But one day long from now being older I'd still be here, and you long gone.

You made me this way, it's all I had known for so long. I remember the day you got taken away, I swore I was fine. But everyone knew and looked at me that day, tears in there eyes. It only took you 5 years to see me, whatever was left of me that day. 

Twisted and bruised, broken and lost but with a tiny little piece still alive. Somehow.