[TW] Numbness

An emptiness at the back of your throat,

a murky feeling lurking at the pit of your stomach.

They threaten to consume you whole,

Have you ever drowned in that?

Those moments when the laughter of others 

ring in dissonance, raw and untamed.

The objects around you seemingly opaque,

but you stand in the middle, transparent.

When time slips through your fingertips,

like sand sliding down an hourglass.

You reminisce your childhood memories,

but it leaves a saccharine taste on your mouth.

The sensation of prickling needles,

that fixes you numb in its place.

As if someone stitches up all orifices,

and leaves a small enough gap for you to breathe.

You scream, shout, cry,

pleading for this turmoil to fade away.

And when you wake up from this dream-like haze,

you are faced with the consequences of your actions.