fear of the blank page

I heard that often that the fear of the blank page can be broken if you just scribble something in the middle of a notebook but I umm.. eheh... eheh... can't do that and won't feel good about it. I only can do it with sketchbooks... and I needed to train myself to do it 😳
yet I am an avid perfectionist 😔 it's so bad that I can wait a year with a blank notebook to gather up the courage to write in it.
recently I found that if I just doodle corner ornaments in the first few pages can actually help.
🤔 the semester at my uni has started in September, and I actually decided to use a nice dotted notebook of mine for note-taking. it's a cheap Flying Tiger planner, but oh my butterfly, isn' it so beautiful still~
nevertheless, I had to take notes during classes, so it gave me a boost. a very scary boost. but... after a month, I managed to set up a system as I went and I am so grateful for past myself for this decision :3