Why weren’t you ever aware?

I needed you 

And you weren’t there

You acted as if my sins where due

But why weren’t you ever aware?

I told you everything

My present, my future, my past

Was I just a simple plaything?

And now you treat me like a outcast

Did I ever do wrong?

Please tell me what I did

Because you made me want to keep life long

And now our connection you forbid 

Is it your mates saying it all?

Or did you tell them 

About everything that made me bawl

What have you become?

You made me feel safe 

And now that’s all gone

Your words are now like a strafe

Was I just a pawn?

You hurt me so very much 

But I’m done 

Your presence was my brake clutch 

But that car is all but none

So where are you now?

Will you ever come back 

If you even know how 

I feel like I’m under attack 

So what will happen?

We’ll have to find out 

Oh how it all makes me sadden 

and makes me feel like a burnout 

Maybe it was just a session 

And your fresh air. 

But I have a question 

Why weren’t you ever aware?

-Ellie