AM I CUT OUT FOR IT

Am I really not cut out for it 

Maybe it is the stress building up bit by bit 

Or doubt which wants to launch a coup in my heart and head 

Now I just tend to stay awake on the bed 

My thoughts spiraling back to the same thing 

Am I really not cut out for it , that phrase has ring 

It genuinely terrifies me where I'm headed to 

But as of now my heart, my mood , my head and my day are all really blue 

I cry for no reason 

My thought right now is if leaving this place is actually committing treason

But what if I'm not really cut out for it 

The yarn like doubts keep coming in and now everything is so tight knit 

Now I'm not only doubting my career choices 

But also my life as is