nightmare big trigger warning
trigger warning sexual talk and other
words i can say in a poem that not sure we can say otherwise full of shame and ashamed too but want others to know the truth too even if they turn and run or say we deserved this too the ones we talking about in this are our brothers and a friend who went all the way that day within Christmas break i was 7yr almost 8yr it was not first time they touched me in that way as that was when i was only 3yr but this time it was more
nightmare
Lost within the nightmare
it carry me to places I do not want to be
back into the room with them
can not run for I am tied down
do not know this morning would be this way
they use their hands first
but then things change so fast
can not scream can not move
fear take over with the pain
not get what I done to deserve this
thought brothers were to keep little sister safe
not hurt them like this
not take from them what is not to be
so I lay in the wet bed unable to move
every time we shut our eyes
see this nightmare again
keep asking why why did they take my childhood from me
what did I do to make them hurt us so
no one cared at all
we just a girl not worth much
boys are worth so much more
they are what dad want to carry on their name
girl are only for sex, having kids and taking care of men
there duty is to server men
some would say that all they good for
so guess we learned that lesson younger then most girls
put in our place as a young childhood
taught what was expected of us we guess
but then thrown away like yesterday trash
good for nothing used and tossed
we unsure what to do with this lasting nightmare
as it from long ago but feel like it now
they say time heal everything
but is that true
will this night mare ever go away
others have but this one sticking around
not sure why this one is
maybe it is to go to the grave with us
we not sure as feel like it will last forever
flooded with the feelings now within the nightmare
but to ashamed to let other know this
what will they think of us
will they turn away from us due to we like dirty trash
not sure if they run away screaming from us in the nightmare
that what we was told would happen
if we told anyone
they said all would say it what we was born for
due to we only a girl we deserve this it our duty we was told
but not sure we believe this anymore
by stormie
@stormieandpaws This is such a raw and powerful piece, filled with so much pain and emotion. The honesty in your words is staggering, and you’ve captured the feeling of being trapped in a nightmare so vividly – both physically and emotionally. It’s heartbreaking to read about the suffering you’ve endured, and the impact it has had on your sense of self. The way you describe the silence, the fear, and the confusion is incredibly moving, and it’s clear how deeply this experience has affected you.
