call it love
it snowed that day
a grey cloud preyed on me, the wind was heavy, there i was planted between running and pleading
it snowed that day
when you smiled at me, said everything was alright, but why does my heart beat so fast, so fast as if almost bursting through my chest
it snowed that day
i looked into your eyes, you looked into mine, filled with a pool of tears waiting to overflow, my trembling voice couldn't reach you in time as you spoke, words of love that i can't recognize
it snowed that day
as i looked out the window, the beautiful flakes making the ground their own, as you said, how marvelous my face was, and held me by the throught
it snowed that day
pinned against a wall, i felt helpless, as if the coldness of your finger tips sucked the life out of me, finally a tear drops, your wicked amused smile tells me, heaven has abandonned me
it snowed that day
the pain was enough to numb out the sound of your voice, yelling, piercing in my ears, saying that you loved me, i once believed those words, i'm not too sure now
it snowed that day
when i looked back on how i trusted you, when things went wrong, i have no clue, what i do know is, no one would ever believe me if i told them what you did
as it snowed that day, i asked myself if this is what they call love, the love they wrote about in books was never like this, at least not as i imagined it. if this is love, i want no part in it
call it love, call it monstrous
