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myredroses December 13th

Trigger Warning - SA

Sidles up by my side No one around to see Pulls my hand, leans in close And smiles unsettlingly If you say a word to anyone Who do you think they'll believe You won't attempt it, right love? Pulls closer, I freeze. Seated in a dim lit room, I shiver, heart drumming, His fingers graze my trembling skin, Speaking soft yet stingingly If you scream or try to fight, Who would care to hear your cries You'll just let it go, right love? No more truths, all lies. Pins me up against the wall, My eyes a silent plea Groping, tugging at my skirt Breathes hot and heavily If you hint a word to anyone Life as you know it will shatter You don't have the strength, do you love? You're lost, you can't recover. Lying down in bed, Him on top of me. Squeezing my throat and neck, And whispering threateningly: If you say a word to anyone, I'll make sure you'll never breathe another! You'll never do that, right love? Squeezes tighter, smothers.
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myredroses OP December 13th

@myredroses

Fixed up the lines...
Sidles up by my side No one around to see Pulls my hand, leans in close And smiles unsettlingly If you say a word to anyone Who do you think they'll believe You won't attempt it, right love? Pulls closer, I freeze. Seated in a dim lit room, I shiver, heart drumming, His fingers graze my trembling skin, Speaking soft yet stingingly If you scream or try to fight, Who would care to hear your cries You'll just let it go, right love? No more truths, all lies.
Pins me up against the wall, My eyes a silent plea Groping, tugging at my skirt
Breathes hot and heavily If you hint a word to anyone Life as you know it will shatter You don't have the strength, do you love? You're lost, you can't recover.
Lying down in bed, Him on top of me. Squeezing my throat and neck, And whispering threateningly: If you say a word to anyone, I'll make sure you'll never breathe another! You'll never do that, right love? Squeezes tighter, smothers.

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BastionKnight December 13th

@myredroses

Your poem is so visceral, it created a pit in my stomach as I read it. The subtle rhyming scheme you have employed is artful and enhances the spoken tone of the piece. The subject matter is intensely sad and piteous, and I cannot imagine anyone reading this and not feeling remorse for the writer. 

*comforts myredroses* It is a potent poem.

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myredroses OP December 15th

@BastionKnight

Thank you for your words! This was my first time posting on this forum, so it means a lot to me😊

(sorry about the lack of line spacing, tried fixing it but no luck)

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@myredroses

Do not worry about the spacing, it was perfectly understandable as it was, and did not distract from it's power. And kudos to you for your bravery in putting forwards something so personal with your first post. I hope you will continue to add to this forum and look forward to seeing more things by you. 

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Tinywhisper11 December 14th

@myredroses I felt every word🙁 written from the soul in a dark place🙁 hugs you tightly ❤

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myredroses OP December 15th

@Tinywhisper11

Thanks!

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azurePond Monday

@myredroses 

This is incredibly intense and emotional. The way you portray the manipulation and fear is both chilling and heartbreaking. The repetition of “right love?” adds a haunting layer of control and gaslighting, making the vulnerability all the more suffocating. You’ve captured the complexity of an abusive situation with such rawness and honesty. It’s a powerful reminder of the silence that often surrounds these experiences. I commend your bravery in sharing such an important, difficult piece.  And, it’s high time abusers are held accountable for their audacity, rather than the survivors being lauded for their courage in enduring. You’ve expressed so much emotion in just a few short words—sending you virtual hugs and soothing vibes. Take care <3


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myredroses OP Monday

@azurePond

Thank you for your kind words! I'm so happy that you felt the theme that I was trying to portray, especially the dichotomy of abuse/fear and "right love". I agree with every word you said.

(i apologize about the lack of line spacing, not sure why it posted that way)

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myredroses OP Monday

TW: CSA

(fixed up the line spacing, hope this worked)

Sidles up by my side

No one around to see

Pulls my hand, leans in close

And smiles unsettlingly

If you say a word to anyone

Who do you think they'll believe 

You won't attempt it, right love?

Pulls closer, I freeze. 


Seated in a dim lit room, 

I shiver, heart drumming, 

His fingers graze my trembling skin, 

Speaking soft yet stingingly

If you scream or try to fight, 

Who would care to hear your cries 

You'll just let it go, right love? 

No more truths, all lies. 


Pins me up against the wall, 

My eyes a silent plea 

Groping, tugging at my skirt 

Breathes hot and heavily 

If you hint a word to anyone 

Life as you know it will shatter 

You don't have the strength, do you love? 

You're lost, you can't recover. 


Lying down in bed, 

Him on top of me. 

Squeezing my throat and neck, 

And whispering threateningly: 

If you say a word to anyone, 

I'll make sure you'll never breathe another! 

You'll never do that, right love? 

Squeezes tighter, smothers.