I wrote a song (I ate some gummies though so don't expect incredible art)

I got high by myself

didn't need anybody else

I hear sounds outside my room

The creaking of the door

I see them walking back and forth

what is it all for?

I have always been someone for someone,

I always felt guilty for being alone,

there was always something I hadn't done

I wish I had known

I was enough

I did have friends

I was loved and I was known,

I was never alone

Making it on my own didn't mean making it alone

I apologized when I was stabbed in the back,

felt bad for breathing when I ran out of breath,

I cried all alone when no one was home

Because I didn't want anyone to know

what is it all for?

I have always been someone for someone,

I always felt guilty for being alone,

there was always something I hadn't done

I wish I had known

I was enough

I did have friends

I was loved and I was known,

I was never alone

Making it on my own didn't mean making it alone

I always felt I owed guys something

Like my body wasn't my own

life was my debt

I wanted to die but I couldn't stop

I was someone's

that's all I was

what was it all for?

I never text back

I never say hi

I feel so alone but I don't even try

instead I'm here watching a show chatting online,

wasting a life like it wasn't mine

I have always been someone for someone,

I always felt guilty for being alone,

there was always something I hadn't done

I wish I had known

I was enough

I did have friends

I was loved and I was known,

I was never alone

Making it on my own didn't mean making it alone

I know it's hard to come to the truth

to find the reasons that made you you

and say I understand who you were and why I am

I forgive those that caused me all this pain

what is it all for?

To be honest I really don't know

I'll hurt again but at least I'll know

I'm enough

I have friends

when things get tough this is not the end

I'm alive

And it's good to be

the person I always wanted to be

All the lights in the apartment are off,

The summer breeze is gone and the night hums,

I'm all alone,

It's not my fault,

I should've texted my friends but it's okay,

all the lights turn off and the noises fade