Remorseful

@silentbuster26

I am so inspired by your honesty and courage to face these things. Thank you for sharing and will hope for progress towards health.

@silentbuster26 narcissism is a spectrum and people can be on one end or the other. So a person may have some mild narcissistic traits or they could have full blown NPD with other issues. What you have written, and your self awareness about yourself, suggests there is real hope for you to change. Awareness is the first step of any self growth - many true narcissists are not aware. They are typically blind to their own thought processes and behaviours (there’s a lot of denial and projection going on to protect the wounded core). So congratulate yourself on your awareness and use it to get to know yourself better. Try to see things from other perspectives - make effort to see other people’s points of views and how they might feel in different situations. If something doesn’t go well with a person, think about your own role in that dynamic and apologise if you can see there’s a need. Don’t beat yourself up about it- if you have narcissistic traits then they are the protective parts that have formed to serve you because of earlier wounds. If you truly want to heal, you have to be brave and face the hurt and find out what it needs.

@silentbuster26

Dear Silentbuster,

I have read your post in its entirety. What I can tell you from my own experience (working with a whole variety of different people) is that people who have full blown narcissistic personality disorder usually do not ask themselves the questions you asked yourself, nor are they reflective upon their actions, nor do they feel remorseful. Those traits are actually what make NPD a disorder - because there is a great lack of remorse and empathy, and there is also a great resistance to reflect upon the correctness of ones own actions. Although I don't know you personally, I can tell you that your post doesn't sound like a post written by someone with NPD. And please, don't jump to conclusions and dont' self-diagnose ❤️ Whatsmore, I really appreciate your opennes and your effort to question yourself - all of those are signs that you are on the right path. I hope that this provides some clarity ❤️ Take care and speak kindly to yourself!

This thread has been very helpful.

Are there group chats on this site?

thanks for this post ....

i, in reviewing my behavior lately see i have become........ if not there very close.

I have given me excuses that for many decades i was put second or third in life behind kids / career etc that deciding NOW was Me time no matter what ........ it has caused issues like trying to straighten a room with a leaf blower.

i guess seeing this post gives me real smack of reality that i need to really examine how far this has went.

Hey, thank you for your post, as a survivor of NPD abuse I feel like maybe you have developed narcissistic traits as a survival mechanism but I am not sure you have a NPD. I am no expert but people who have NPD rarely feel remorse of any kind, also those with NPD will very very very rarely accept something is wrong with them and even less accept that they need help or to change. Have a look at Dr Ramanis YouTube channel and you will learn a lot about NPD and the traits…

Wishing you all the best!

Acceptance is the first step to change!

Wishing you all the best!