Identity fragmentation? Many personalities? Need to hear your thoughts about this

Hello everyone, it was hard to figure out those things inside my head but i finally managed to understand it enough to describe it 

 I feel like there are characters in my head and they change over time. I can notice changes in myself when one of them "Takes the lead" as i call it. I know it seems illogical, but this is the only way I can interpret the things that are happening to me. I think that my Facial features Change a little with each personality, And the sensituations in my body change That sometimes im ticklish or responsive to physical touches and other times I am totally numb. I can feel that some of them hate some people and the other don't so that's why I might hate someone and like them at the same time. I feel like they protect me and create a protective layer around me to keep me safe.

I used to feel extremely disconnected from the reality and myself that i did wrong things without caring because everything felt foggy and unreal. i get disconnected less now, thankfully. but they're still in my head. I hear them sometimes, I get auditory hallucinations and hear foggy words or conversations. I used to have a good memory but in the last few months (actually more than 6 months) I have been forgetting everything so easily My head is so empty and messy at the same time. Keep in mind that All of them (the people in my head) share the same memories and 'core' as I call it, they share the same real me. But they're still different. Their personalities are different the way my face looks and the way my body feels change With each one of them.

sometimes I accidentally Say rude things to my family/ friends/ teachers but the words literally escape my mouth! And I get too many thoughts about situations in my life That I just don't know how to feel about it. Sometimes I suddenly without warning feel a lot of rage towards someone (mostly my father) and have really hard time not to cuss or do something stupid 

The first time I felt disconnected was january last year. It was so intense that I felt like im going to pass out. And since that day until today I never felt real 100%

If you are wondering yes I have been abused as a child. mentally, physically and vocabulary. And its probably (definitely) the reason for everything wrong in my life. *deep breath* but I'm feeling so okay currently so don't be sorry about it because I'm good 🥳

If anyone know anything about this Or share a similar experience I'd be so glad to hear it.  I searched and found something called identity fragmentation but I don't know much about it. Anyway,, Thanks for reading!! :>